Feelings, Vulnerability, Rawness! :)

Hi peeps! 🙂

I think the best thing in the world is being missed,

When you miss someone, you expect nothing from that person except that they were here. 🙂

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P.S :  Did you guys miss me? Extremely sorry for not being in touch, I was on a secret mission, but don’t worry, I am alive and kicking, now that the world has been saved and everything else been taken care of, I am back at being my usual self and I’m here for you again. 🙂


You trust me, don’t you?

And yet, you keep lying that you are okay,

Even when I can see your puffy eyes so clearly.

Is it because of what I think it is?

Are you petrified of what you’re molding into? Are you nervous that I will pity you if you show me how vulnerable you are?

I won’t lie. Maybe I will, but ask me and I won’t. You know, you’re not a wreck, so stop thinking you are. If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be me. And literally trust me on this. 🙂

Remember the day when you whooped me in the middle of the night, told me that you care, and listened to me sob? Remember how you sat by me, and gazed right into my eyes, as in between fake laughs, I told you my tale? I was agitated that you’ll call me weak, but every single day and every single moment you made it a point to remind me how strong and secure I am. And I believed you, not because I thought the same, but because you’d never lie to me. 🙂

And now, I notice you waking up in the dusky hours of the night and gawking out of the window, drying your tears before they touch your cheeks, feels like you’re escaping something and I get scared. The one person in my life, whom I’ve looked up to for hope, now seems to be losing it. I wish I could help, but some battles can only be fought alone. :/ These days whenever we converse over the phone, I can sense your breaking voice and lumps in your throat, but you never let it shatter. In between my tears and worries, I smile pondering what is it that gives you so much strength and courage. To the world you’re just another normal person, and how flawed they are. I wish they knew you like I do. I wish they knew the superhero inside you. 🙂

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Sweetheart, if it weren’t for you, I would have never accepted that superheroes existed outside comic books and fairy tales. You’ve proudly announced yourself selfish, but I prefer to call you a liar, for I know how selfless and compassionate you are. 🙂 You look out for everyone, you lend an ear to every word, you offer your shoulder to every soul, you’ve done everything you could have for everyone you could have done something for. You’ve always proven me that mankind still exists somewhere in this cruel world. You’ve always been the one who broke down walls people caged themselves in, you have always, always, been the good guy in everyone’s bad stories; but now, I see you slowly fading away. I see the resistant part of you gradually dominating the superhero inside you. :/
If you want, you can never retort to my texts in more than a syllable, if you wish, then let our phone calls be more full of sighs than actual words, but I don’t care.

I accept you with your demons, I accept that light and darkness are always going to be mixed under your skin like hailstorm, and you might be a witness to occasional thunder and rain. I respect all parts of you and that is why I’m here with you, standing right beside you through every thick and thin. 🙂

I will never give up on someone who never gave up on me. 🙂
I know you’re not giving up on yourself either, but you need to know that neither are the rest of us. I cannot assure you that everything will be perfect right now, but yes, one thing which I guarantee you is that, it will be perfect in time. 🙂
And at the end of the day, I need you to remember that although holding on to hope doesn’t solve problems, it gives us something to hold on to.
So even when you’re crashing onto the ground, hold on. Hold on to friends, to words, to dreams, to hope, to that superhero inside you, to everything; but most of all, hold onto yourself. 🙂

And all, I have gotta say to you right now is, “I do not have the exact words and phrases to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to attend to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart; a heart that’s aching to see you smile again.” 🙂

And still, if you can’t help but fall, then fall, but don’t fall apart. 🙂

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